starts with a happy ending.

sometimes i just feel so helpless..
i don't know why but it's a nasty feeling..
i wish i can control things how i want it but yet it loses meaning in itself entirely if i did..

every christmas we think of how to celebrate..the new way..
i wish we had our very own traditional christmas celebration..
every year during the season, i used to grow up with christmas trees with presents underneath, christmas home decors, christmas dinners with the whole honey glazed turkey ham, red wine, log cake, christmas carols playing everywhere..
whatever happened..
in future, i want my new family to have that culture, that love that we must share every year..
i promise i will..


will you promise me too?